goodbye mama

My mom recently passed away. It was sudden, in a sense, that I didn’t really get to say goodbye when she was still conscious.

Our family has been surrounded with love and support the last few weeks, we are grateful for that.

This is my new normal, something I have to accept. I sit with my grief and sadness, and recognize that it is there, and let myself feel all the range of emotions that comes with grieving.

I will miss my mom forever and will spend a lifetime honoring her and the remembering the happy memories we had.

I enjoy talking about her and what she was like, so maybe some of that will spill into this blog.

I saw her for the last time at Thanksgiving dinner at my house (picture below). She was in good spirits, she was excited and even bought all new outfit for the occasion.

She was laid to rest in her final resting place in the Philippines, she had specific instructions, so we followed her wishes.

The pain and sadness stills feel raw, and at times, overwhelming.

Even thru my grief, I realize there is still joy to be had in this holiday season and there is still a lot of things to be grateful for. I’ve had pockets of joy in between sadness, good days and bad days, but life is still good.